I have to stop valuing my days by their productivity levels. Sure, I feel great when I complete an entire to do list on the day that it was written for but what about the other days? The days when it is physically or mentally impossible for me to get every last thing on that list done.
Are they immediately ‘bad days‘? If not, then why can’t I ever feel good or unstressed if those lists aren’t completed?
It is easy to blame the lists or the importance that I place on these lists. However, this response doesn’t address the problem. Lists get my ideal days together, 24 hour block planners are like manna for me.
What sucks is my relationship with how I value time. I’m not exactly sure how to go about changing this relationship but I’m going to start experimenting.
Often I don’t do things on my lists not because I was scrolling through Instagram (sometimes though) but because I either didn’t allocate enough time for a single activity and then my entire day is in disarray. At other times, I simply chose, in that moment, to use my time for socializing.
I know that it is extremely beneficial for my mental and physical health to engage with other people. This time isn’t wasted. I can’t schedule a friend’s bad day or family emergency, nor an impromptu lime- they happen and I respond. At the expense of my list.
Anyways, that’s what’s up. It’s time to improve the quality of those last few thoughts before I drift off to sleep. Changing my relationship with productivity’s influence is a good start, I think.
Stay in, Do more, Do less,