If you’ll be in Miami for even a few hours you should make the best use of those hours. This is an exciting city with great beaches, bars, hotels and restaurants.
Well, folks, somehow eight months have passed by. Eight months and five days to be exact. Two hundred and fourty-seven mornings have gone by. Two hundred and forty-seven sunsets.
Some days were warm, others were not. Some days I wore boots, others flip flops. Some days were blue, others were grey. Some days I was happy, some days I dismayed.
I’ve been here in Montreal for the majority of this time. In addition, I’ve gone out to Rigaud, QC, for sheep-shearing and maple extracting. I spent Christmas in Toronto, ON with my grandmother and aunts. That trip was in the middle of two other trips to Aven’s family cottage; one for the Winter solstice, and the other for New Years, in the Laurentides, QC.
After Easter, I went back out to the cottage, surprised to see how different it looked without snow.
When I was leaving Trinidad on September 1st, 2016, I was extremely happy to be escaping for at least eight months but I was also stressed out to be leaving my family in an uncertain time. I cried quite a bit. Yet, when my second plane for that day, banked and turned over Montreal, giving me a view of Mont Royal, an ocean of good vibes washed over me. Immediately I knew in my gut that I was going to be okay. I knew that this was going to be an entirely fulfilling experience.
Boy! Oh boy! Was I correct.
Now, the time has come to an end and it hurts to leave.
What I found in this city, is better than gold.
There are many things that I am not looking forward to returning to and some things that I am.
Things that Rushell is looking forward to in Trinidad:
1. Spending time physically with my family. Just us being in the same space together. Having evenings on the boat or mornings at home where everyone is doing their own thing and the house is alive. It never ceases to amuse me how we fall back into rhythms and it seems as if whoever was gone never left. (I would like to change some rhythms though!)
2. Sailing! It has been so long since I’ve gone sailing. I think this is the longest that I have not sailed since 2008. If things go certain ways, I just may be sailing very, very frequently come July.
3. Beach days out in the sun. I’m looking forward to feeling the sand under my feet and early morning drives along the North Coast Road to Las Cuevas. More weekends in Tobago are on my agenda.
4. NOT FREEZING! This wasn’t higher up on the list because being cold is almost comfortable- you can always put on more clothes. Unless of course you’re already waiting at the bus stop and it is 3:30 am, you’ve taken the wrong bus initially and you’re waiting for a bus that was supposed to arrive 23 minutes ago. In these instances, you’re just going to be uncomfortable and freeze. You can’t put on more clothes now. You should have thought of that six hours ago when you thought -12 was warm enough.
5. So, when I first wrote this list, it was on my phone in the notes application and I wrote something under number 5 but auto-correct has made it indistinguishable. So I’m thinking of something else that I’m looking forward to. I think it would be driving although I really enjoy taking public transportation.
Five things I am not looking forward to:
1. The inevitable anxiety that I feel continuously when in Trinidad.
2. small nation; BIG problems -government systems, politics, corruption, crime. Unfortunately, these faulty systems have impacted me in a hugely negative way.
3. Traffic in Port-of-Spain- Wrightson Road to be exact. I have to meditate to get through this traffic on my way to UWI.
4. Paying Bmobile’s fees for data.
5. Lack of community. What made Montreal so special for me was the community of people that I found there. We were able to connect in ways that I’ve always wanted to connect to other people in. At home, the conversations that I really want to have- Goddamit I don’t give a flying fruitcake about who put on weight and looks weird because her bath suit was too small- are so rare and in between here. There are projects that I want to work on but I haven’t met the right people here who are interested in working on them with me.
There ya go!
That’s what’s floating through, some weighing heavily on, my heart right now.
Stay adventurous, stay in!
Trillions of events have caused each droplet to be in its specific location.
Thenceforth, the name London no longer prompts imagery of bridges nor shards of glass. Instead, my internal search engine produces pictures of trees, tranquil ponds, and open skies.
Spring has arrived in Montreal. This is cause for celebration! Tam Tams at Mont Royal, shorts, ice cream and spending time in the sun.
A classic night of pints, live music, bike rides, The Village and 2 am Poutine at La Banquise.
Challenge yourself but don’t put yourself in positions that you don’t feel comfortable in.
Not just comfortable, but if you feel like you are morally compromising your beliefs then you need to change things.
Even if it is difficult because that situation comforts you or provides for you in some way or another.
Often times, things that are against what we stand for take great tolls on our bodies when we partake in them.
Jobs, relationships, classes, sports, meals. If done in alignment with your moral code, even challenging activities can improve your mood.
However, challenging activities that aren’t along your path really break down your life stamina.
Love yourself, don’t spend your fleeting life doing things that break you down. Where there is a will there is a way.
Seeing that I no longer participate in one of the activities that I talked about above, I was able to have some extra time to attend a yoga class today.
You cannot see my smile but Sir Whaley is smiling back at you.