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Update on Life: Photos,University, Study Abroad, Summer Plans & More!

Hello, folks!

This is a relatively short post talking about what I’m up to these days. I’ll cover school, ballet, Montreal, blogging, submissions, French and summer. (Photos at the the bottom!)

Summer is the most exciting, and possibly the least certain, but in the glory of fun times, I’ll start there. Once the semester ends, I’ll be in Montreal for at least the rest of May. From that point on I’ll either stay in Montreal for a few more months or head back to Trinidad.

Having a student permit allows me to work here and the possibilities are endless. I could go cherry picking in BC, work in Banff, remain in Montreal doing freelance photography or ride across the continent to BC then go south to California. Perhaps the bike trip will be to Gaspesei or to Vermont. I am also exploring the possibilities of going WWOOFing for some portion of my summer. I’ll be back in Trinidad by August, and I intend to visit one of the other beautiful Caribbean islands for a week or so. Can you guess which?

I’m not at all excited by school next year right now. I enjoy my course, but the larger picture and focus on me completing my degree has me very disillusioned. I know the value of having a degree in today’s world. I see how having a degree would be beneficial to me and my future plans. Particularly the plans surrounding me teaching English in Japan and China upon graduation. I’ve dedicated two and a half years of time to getting a degree so far, and it is not something that I am passionate about. Further, spending time working on this degree is taking away time that I would like to spend building the future me that I would like to be.

While becoming a RYA certified Yachtmaster and a PADI certified Divemaster are my real goals, I live in a disillusioned society where university degrees, hold more societal value. Certainly, I can attain both types of education. However, I am concerned about the invisible timer over my head with decreasing numbers. Also, becoming a Yachtmaster and Divemaster were goals that I have had for a decade now. So many other goals have come into the picture, and I have been working on them instead.

At this point, I would really like to dedicate some time to achieving these goals. I’ve put in two and a half years of effort into getting a degree and I’ve dropped out of university once before. I don’t intend to drop out again. I have only half of my degree left, and I intend to get it over and done with.

Ballet! 
I started back ballet, my great joy. Then I stopped because my job took most of my time that wasn’t dedicated to school. Now I’ve left that job but I don’t have the extra funds to pay for ballet. So for the while, I’m no longer doing ballet.

Submissions
I am so very excited to say that I have been taking my writing one step further. I have been sending in pieces to different campaigns. Some are competitions others are not. I enjoy writing very much and I am excited by the amount of work that I get to put into a well-crafted piece. I focus mostly on Travel Writing and on The Individual’s Interaction.

I was also going to enter a photography competition; however, I did not agree with the Terms and Conditions, so I did not enter in the end.

French
Learning French is difficult. No one told me that it would be otherwise, though, so I am not surprised. I have not been putting my best foot forward and dedicating sufficient time to practising. Of course, the only way to learn a language is to practise. Also, while Montreal is fantastic in that English speakers can travel comfortably here, it is not that great for learning French as there is no challenge. Montreal is very much a faux-immersion city. If you decide to only interact in French (as a learning tool) you may succeed. However, conversations will switch to English very quickly.

Blogging
I’ve been computer-less for most of the last month which was a huge hindrance. However, I was able to maintain this blog with regular posts through using my phone. Unfortunately, my posts haven’t been laden with exciting photos as I would like them to be. The good news is that I have my computer again and I can upload and edit photos to my heart’s content. I’m super impressed that I’ve been blogging fairly regularly and I hope to keep it that way. I cannot give a schedule for which days. I’m thinking that if I put together more posts without posting them, I can schedule posts for the future.

PHOTOS! photos! PHOTOS!

 

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A few weeks ago I had a really bad flu and for the first time ever, I got ‘Red Eyes’ aka Conjunctivitis. It was so painful! I’m all better now.

 

 

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Just about every Sunday I go to Marche Jean Talon and purchase my veggies and fruits for the week. It usually runs me around $50 CAN
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A few streets away. This is the height of a three storey building.
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Bar Fly, an apparently awesome bar that I’m yet to visit.

Some art in my neighbourhood. I live in the Plateau which is a very artistic neighbourhood filled with university students.

 

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Well folks, that is all for now. I’ll be back soon with a few more stories from my trip.
Rushell

THOUGHTS: Life is Everything At Once-Part TWO

If you haven’t read part one of this post, it isn’t absolutely necessary but it is a continuation of those thoughts. That post was written after meeting someone for an afternoon and connecting with them amazingly. (I think some people call this ‘falling in love‘. It sounds really scary but it is actually a wonderful feeling, even though you’re, well, falling!)

Dear God,

Dear God,
I’m sorry and I hope you can understand.

There is much to say but at the same time, saying it only nullifies to point of saying anything at all initially. It is in fact meaningless; I’ll say that much.

I’ve got a brain and chemicals and they run this body, and it is all very confusing how these things within me, or me, I’m not sure, control ‘me’.

There are not answers, I tried that a few years ago.

Would you be so kind as to understand me and love me none the less if you know me? I’d really appreciate that because from the look of it I’ll get two punishing experiences.

Remember me and love me, take pity on me and show me mercy please,

Rushell Rousseau

The Waiting Game

A time for sowing, a time for reaping.

A time for waiting.

What can I say? That is pretty much my life right now- waiting. 

Nothing about it is relaxing or calming. Mostly I just put the topic out of my mind because there isn’t anything that I can do with three of the four things that I’m waiting on. 

Waiting on Concordia University to accept me to study there for the next year or not. (I CAN email CU to ask what’s up)

Waiting to see if I get the Canada/CARICOM scholarship.

Waiting to see how the case with my parents’ company pans out.

Waiting for the boy who I’ve thought about everyday for the last three years. 

-Before this, I also had on this list ‘waiting to hear who got the award for the Barbados job’. 

Within the next two months I’ll have the answer for three of the four things but it is going to be a really long wait with number four, and at the end of the waiting I still may not have a favourable outcome. Regardless, and I genuinely mean this, -his happiness is mine. It’s worked for the last three years and it will continue to. It is a strange thing to think about someone everyday, especially someone who you used to see all the time then no more, now every wandering thought goes back to that person. 

And I’m in two minds about posting this on the blog because it is sort of pitiful in a really sixteen year old girl way but que sera sera. 

I’m just making my way through this time of waiting. 

A picture of a sunset because one day the sun will set on this waiting. hahaha I’m so cheesy. It is true though!

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Cheers,

rusharella 🙂