As my time here wore on, I realised that I recognized myself less and less. My general disposition to life had changed. I was a lot more cynical than I had ever been. Some days I didn’t bother to look for the hundreds of small … Continue reading Losing the Spark In My Eyes- Finding it Outside
So here I am, feeling more shattered than wholesome. I think back to a year ago. Back then I was certain that by now the tides would be changed.
They did not.
F O R A W H I L E N O W
Every thing that is going on, has been going on. Nothing is new, things have grown, shrunk, transformed; still the same things.
I haven’t posted anything on this blog for a while now.
I’ve been back in Trinidad for a while now.
I’ve been watching my plans for the future come to fruition for a while now.
I’ve been heart broken over relationships that ended abruptly, for a while now.
People around me have been dying for a while now.
I’ve been wondering about life for a while now.
I’ve been trying to find a job & make money for a while now.
I have not enjoyed the rainy season for a while now.
I have been constantly tired for a while now.
I have been mulling over which path to choose for a while now.
I think about you daily for a while now.
You‘ve been an extra reason to smile for a while now.
I’ve been missing sailing for a while now.
I’ve been looking forward to migrating from Trinidad for a while now.
I’ve been considering anti depressants for a while now.
I have been wanting to write something, anything, on this blog for a while now.
Nothing new, still the same things.
Stay in, stay caring,
I want to ask, “Why are there so many brick walls?”
perfection: state of being without fault When you think of me, the first word that comes to mind isn’t ‘perfectionist‘. ‘Free-spirit‘,’wanderer‘, ‘sailor‘, ‘weird‘ (in the type of way that you like), or more aptly, ‘beachbum’ are nouns that commonly resonate. They are all accurate but there … Continue reading The Curse of Perfection
Time it was and what a time it was.
There will be pictures of the flora, hopefully some fauna, studying, architecture, friends, partying, adventures and SNOW! Also, remember that whatever I post here is a subsection of my life. It is not a representation of what I do for every minute of every day that I am on exchange.